change you

im out of the water
im into the air
im lost in the clouds its like nobody dares
to find out whats lost
or whats found if its there
its a room with no windows
and a world without air

if anything its safety
i like being secure
out of the water im lost and unsure
its not that i wont
or dont want to adapt
i didnt get a choice when i triggered this trap
im stuck like the rock
that fell into a lake
sunk to the bottom and accepted its fate

i dont want to accept it but what should i do
its not like i get a choice like they gave you.

we flattened this earth
we leveled these hills
we built you these cities
now youll take these pills

we gave you these pills
we gave you a home
we gave you the truth
now youll read what we wrote

we wrote you these stories
we drew you the sea
we did what you asked us
now youll let it be

we let your skin be but
we fixed up your mind
we patched up your bones
now youll (obey us) be fine

i once heard a story
about someone young
who did something great
that person wasnt me
and everybody likes to make sure that
i know it

you dont like that
you exist to people
that you have never met

you dont like that
your time is a resource
that always ends up wasted

you dont like that
days are bad sometimes and
that work is not a game

and i fault you
for these things
and more

what started as a joke
ended, again
in tears

i was hurt because
you didnt know the color
of
my eyes

you were hurt because
you didnt know
i cared
so much

ive wilted
more than tulips
in winter
these days

ive flourished
more than roses
in gardens
these days

ive endured
more than cacti
in deserts
these days

ive created
more than bulbs
in spring
these days

i wake up
and i have coffee
and i have a piece of toast
and i might have some orange juice

instead of orange juice i have a nap
and i might stay here for awhile
and i might like it too

the things i dont know cant hurt me
im wrapped firmly in ignorance and apathy
its a little dark but im ok
its a blanket that keeps me from insanity
id just close my eyes but ive found
the things i want to escape
arent things that go away in fake night
only in moonlight can i drown my mistakes
if youre still out there you should know
i didnt want to fade away
its just that in you id found
someone i couldnt face without the day